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Hmmm. I'm not sure exactly what to call this post. Nothing really out of the norm went on today. I do find that my creative energy is low. I have no motivation to do much of anything right now except think about all the things I should be doing and all the things I want to be doing.

I guess there is a lot on my mind. My teeth is a big thing. I noticed that the top chewing teeth on the right side were feeling funny. I have been watching them closely while I floss because one of them just didn't look right around the gum area. Well, the funny looking one is slightly loose and the two on either side move ever so slightly. I have been battling bad teeth for years and I knew eventually I would lose them, but geez, I am not even 35 and I may lose more teeth! I always figured that old old ladies in their 70s lose their teeth. Not women in their 30s. I just wish that someone would have sat me down as a teenager and said, "Look, go to the dentist regularly, floss everyday and brush regularly or you'll be taking your teeth out every night and sit them in a glass on the nightstand when you're 35." My kids will be going to the dentist ever six months as soon as they start school.

Another health concern. I failed my glucose tolerance test miserably! I knew that I would fail, but didn't think it would be that bad. 110 is the target number and I more than doubled that at 235. I now have to see a specialist and go on the special diet and get monitored every two weeks. This is the third pregnancy in a row with gestational diabetes. Kyle was a bit on the big side when born, so this time I will be more stringent on the diet and not give up on it. This is definitely the last pregnancy. My body can't take anymore. Not that having kids is a bad thing, nor is it a hassle. If we had the means to (financially and physically), I would want more. But this sweet one shall be the last.

My energy is low. I am always so sleepy. It is probably a result of the diabetes. Maybe I I would just get off my butt and be more active during the day, the sleepiness wouldn't set in. The kids run around all day and have lots and lots of energy. Sometimes I wish I could have as much energy as they did.

Speaking of kids, they have been really really good lately. They play together really well and haven't been fighting. Not that they fight excessively. It's just small little squabbles over toys and things. Nothing that a stern look and a stern voice can't stop. Kevin has just become so grown up. Sometimes I forget that he isn't even five yet. Michaela is starting to act older too. She is definitely thinking for herself these days and has some pretty strong opinions about things. The other day she had a look on her face (my mad face I believe). She crossed her arms over her chest and stated, "Kevin is bothering me. I'm not playing with him anymore." Not two seconds later, they were playing in their room. Kyle, Mr. Smarty Pants, understands almost every word I say and will do the exact opposite. "Kyle come here. Let's change your diaper." His response is to run in the other direction squealing in delight. "Kyle don't touch that, that's Kevin's/Kaela's" His response: Grab it a quick as I can and run before Mommy comes after me. "Kyle time to get dressed." His response: Hand Mommy every article of clothing laying around that doesn't belong to him.

Okay, here's a question. The kitchen was spotless this morning. How come it looks like a tornado hit? It seems every night is the same thing. Clean the kitchen before bed. Keith always tells me to leave it for the morning, but waiting until morning makes the mess look even more horrific. Overnight all the gross things accumulate on the dishes, and they just get so gross to touch. I think I would rather take the time to do it at night.

Well, that's all the comments for tonight. I have to get to cleaning the kitchen! Good night!